Is This Real? Am I Dreaming?
So, I'm having a dilemma. Not necessarily a negative thing though. This kind of thing happened to me last year and I was saying things like, "education is not necessary" and "why am I here?" and things along the lines of "there are too many people on this planet." I can see why that might seem negative or problematic. This year, well it's not completely like that, but it's not unsimilar either (yes I know that is not a word). The announcements of the school musical have already been posted. And I intended to get this announcement in March. I don't know what has happened. It's as though I'm jet lagged.
I've been keeping up with school assignments and everything, but all my memories of assignments and what I did week before are muddled together. Also, and take a deep breath fir this one, I feel like everything the human race is doing is a dream. I don't know how to explain this! Whenever I'm sitting in class, I just look at all these objects: Expo markers, mechanical pencils, and books and I just think, how did we get here? Why did we choose this way of life?
In retrospect, this doesn't seem like the most radical question to ask. Humans did live in the wilderness for quite a while. I simply don't understand why we chose to take the path of innovation and profit.
I'm just thinking what would happen if we returned to our old ways where we lived in the wilderness. Would that really be bad? One might say we wouldn't progress as a race, but is this important? Is this living life to the fullest? I just feel like that's my Western ideology hat talking.
A few days ago I was actually having a discussion with my friend about a hypothetical situation regarding a parent's decision to raise her or his child in the wilderness. In consequence the parent would be able to keep the child from society and its many, many values. We continued this discussion saying the parent has a right to do this, but not keep her or his child from society. And while I agree that the child has a decision to what she or he wants, I don't think barring an education from the child is a complete moral wrong done by the parent. Especially if the child is brought up in the wild, which really isn't that strange of an idea. If you have an opinion on this, regardless of what it is, do feel free to voice it.
Trust me I know how weird this sounds. But I would gladly consider living in the wilderness for a year. ANYWAY the main problem I've been having is just finding an awareness of time. Nowadays the weekday mornings just feel like continuations of the previous day...rather than a whole new day.
I don't really know what caused me to want to write about this, but writing this blog has been very stress relieving. Later on I'll discuss how stress isn't really something I've properly dealt with until this year. I'm telling you...there are so many issues that arise that you really never think about junior year. But don't let me frighten you. I've also gained a lot of confidence and don't feel as guilty about my opinions (trying to live up to one of my New Year's resolutions here). I'm clearly just going off on a whole bunch of tangents now.
The point is, I don't feel properly conscious anymore, but as I'm writing about it I really just think it has to with my lack of will to do things. I've just been sitting my butt in front of the TV. So obviously I have to address that and now thanks to writing this post I actually have to live up to what I write.
And there's my overview of my state of mind. A FEW DAYS LATER...
I wasn't expecting this post to take forever to write. In my defense I felt slightly uneasy about writing about something I don't usually like to tell people. I guess its just another one of my "me"-isms. . Now I'm finally feeling like I'm taking at least a little more initiative. After the Ethics Bowl win I talked about, things are starting to perk up. I'm wearing nicer clothes, feeling better about myself, lifting weights at the fitness center.
Things are good.
And...drum roll please...I'm going to Puerto Rico! I'm so happy I'm finally mentioning it! I haven't been able to contain myself! Soon I'll be going to the lovely island of Puerto Rico; volunteering and being a tourist. And that means there'll be a whole of blog posts running toward you. Keep in touch and take advantage of this sunny day you all! 🌞🌞
I've been keeping up with school assignments and everything, but all my memories of assignments and what I did week before are muddled together. Also, and take a deep breath fir this one, I feel like everything the human race is doing is a dream. I don't know how to explain this! Whenever I'm sitting in class, I just look at all these objects: Expo markers, mechanical pencils, and books and I just think, how did we get here? Why did we choose this way of life?
In retrospect, this doesn't seem like the most radical question to ask. Humans did live in the wilderness for quite a while. I simply don't understand why we chose to take the path of innovation and profit.
I'm just thinking what would happen if we returned to our old ways where we lived in the wilderness. Would that really be bad? One might say we wouldn't progress as a race, but is this important? Is this living life to the fullest? I just feel like that's my Western ideology hat talking.
A few days ago I was actually having a discussion with my friend about a hypothetical situation regarding a parent's decision to raise her or his child in the wilderness. In consequence the parent would be able to keep the child from society and its many, many values. We continued this discussion saying the parent has a right to do this, but not keep her or his child from society. And while I agree that the child has a decision to what she or he wants, I don't think barring an education from the child is a complete moral wrong done by the parent. Especially if the child is brought up in the wild, which really isn't that strange of an idea. If you have an opinion on this, regardless of what it is, do feel free to voice it.
Trust me I know how weird this sounds. But I would gladly consider living in the wilderness for a year. ANYWAY the main problem I've been having is just finding an awareness of time. Nowadays the weekday mornings just feel like continuations of the previous day...rather than a whole new day.
I don't really know what caused me to want to write about this, but writing this blog has been very stress relieving. Later on I'll discuss how stress isn't really something I've properly dealt with until this year. I'm telling you...there are so many issues that arise that you really never think about junior year. But don't let me frighten you. I've also gained a lot of confidence and don't feel as guilty about my opinions (trying to live up to one of my New Year's resolutions here). I'm clearly just going off on a whole bunch of tangents now.
The point is, I don't feel properly conscious anymore, but as I'm writing about it I really just think it has to with my lack of will to do things. I've just been sitting my butt in front of the TV. So obviously I have to address that and now thanks to writing this post I actually have to live up to what I write.
And there's my overview of my state of mind. A FEW DAYS LATER...
I wasn't expecting this post to take forever to write. In my defense I felt slightly uneasy about writing about something I don't usually like to tell people. I guess its just another one of my "me"-isms. . Now I'm finally feeling like I'm taking at least a little more initiative. After the Ethics Bowl win I talked about, things are starting to perk up. I'm wearing nicer clothes, feeling better about myself, lifting weights at the fitness center.
Things are good.
And...drum roll please...I'm going to Puerto Rico! I'm so happy I'm finally mentioning it! I haven't been able to contain myself! Soon I'll be going to the lovely island of Puerto Rico; volunteering and being a tourist. And that means there'll be a whole of blog posts running toward you. Keep in touch and take advantage of this sunny day you all! 🌞🌞
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